Struggling
November 24th 2009 20:08
I honestly can't believe how much I'm struggling this November in terms of my writing. I think that just going to school is a big part of that. It's taking eight hours out of my day, and, well, I'm not used to that. I don't like that. I need that time for writing... le sigh. Not only does it take time out of my day, but every day it wears me out. I'm tired by the time I get home. It's ridiculous.
I'm glad that I don't feel alone in this. A lot of Nanoers who, like me, reach for the stars and aim for crazy high word counts, are struggling more this year than usual. A lot of others who usually don't go much beyond, but don't have problems hitting 50K, are struggling. This hasn't been a very good year for a lot of people, what with the recession and all that, and it's showing in Nanowrimo terms.
Four short days... on Saturday my dad will have been dead for four years. Almost half a decade he's been gone. I can still picture the day he died like it was yesterday. I still remember him, I remember how much I loved him, all the good times we had together... but they don't really make it any better.
Maybe that's why my writing is just not flowing. Maybe not. I don't know what the problem is, but whatever is wrong, it's only making me more depressed. All I want to do at this point is end up with a better word count than last year's, even if it's only by two or three thousand words. And I still need to write pretty much 100, 000 to do that.
I thought at the overnighter that I had beaten the block-in a 24 hour time period I managed to write 24K and change. But apparently I didn't really accomplish anything-in the end I'm just as blocked as I ever was and in fact I think I'm even more blocked.
Anyway. Enough of me ranting about how much my life sucks. Thanks for bearing with me, guys.
I'm glad that I don't feel alone in this. A lot of Nanoers who, like me, reach for the stars and aim for crazy high word counts, are struggling more this year than usual. A lot of others who usually don't go much beyond, but don't have problems hitting 50K, are struggling. This hasn't been a very good year for a lot of people, what with the recession and all that, and it's showing in Nanowrimo terms.
Four short days... on Saturday my dad will have been dead for four years. Almost half a decade he's been gone. I can still picture the day he died like it was yesterday. I still remember him, I remember how much I loved him, all the good times we had together... but they don't really make it any better.
Maybe that's why my writing is just not flowing. Maybe not. I don't know what the problem is, but whatever is wrong, it's only making me more depressed. All I want to do at this point is end up with a better word count than last year's, even if it's only by two or three thousand words. And I still need to write pretty much 100, 000 to do that.
I thought at the overnighter that I had beaten the block-in a 24 hour time period I managed to write 24K and change. But apparently I didn't really accomplish anything-in the end I'm just as blocked as I ever was and in fact I think I'm even more blocked.
Anyway. Enough of me ranting about how much my life sucks. Thanks for bearing with me, guys.
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Comment by Kleonaptra
Kalikapsychosis
I get ya. Im struggling too. Hope the weight lifts for all of us soon, honey.
Comment by Dianna G
I Wish This Was 42
Fictional Worlds
*Hugz* It's been a bad year... and it's a bad time of year for a lot of people in general...
Let's just hope 2010 is much much better than 2009. (Or 2008, or 2007, or... oh hell.)
~Dianna